I think I am living with a CHEATER

I know I know I should probably post something happy and lie about what is truely going on in my life because I am sure that is what people want to read about but quiet frankly I am above that, and I need to get this out.

DISCLAIMER: I AM PREGNANT and apparently that means I am an emotional wreck that must cry at every and any little thing that happes, so things that seem out of whack to me probably arent so much to that person without a million hormones running through their body.

Noticing:

I first noticed something odd about three weeks ago. T- my fiance, the man I have lived with for eight years and have an adorable child with started getting calls late at night. He told me that he had two older ladies in his math class at Tech that would call him for help with their homework and tutoring with things they didnt understand. I shrugged and said okay because I have been in College I know that sometimes you don't start homework until the hour it is actually due, and that yes you may in fact have forgotten what you learned four classes ago. I also didnt think much of it at the time because all of their homework is graded and T actually has one of the highest grades in his class. If I was struggling in class I would seek him out too. 

Then last week T tells me that one of these "ladies" had invited us to her housewarming party, but that he had declined for both of us without even telling me about it. But she started texting him about it at 10:30 and 11:00 p.m. on the night of the party. Weird...Yes but still didnt really think anything of it. 

EXCUSE ME
So last night in my usual pregnant exhausted stumper when I came in, T was working on homework. He had painted and the house was kinda stinky with fumes so I went to the bedroom and laid down for a bit. Got up forced myself to eat some dinner, and then went to bed for the evening around 1230pm. T was in the living room watching tv. He usually will fall asleep out there and wake up a couple hours later and come get in bed, so nothing fishy with that. But at 4:00AM, I woke up having to pee (headbutt to the bladder), I heard the tv and the lights were on, so I went in the family room to wake T up and tell him to come to bed. HE wasnt there......

I checked our office, no body there, our dog bailey, who I personally put in his cage was not in the house. T hadnt fallen asleep in our son's room, and he wasnt in any other room of the house. I checked outside, and the lights were off except in the sunroon, but no T there......I waited for a little bit, about ten to fifteen minutes, then went and looked outside again. THE CAR WAS GONE. Now, this is when it hit me! He has left the house at 4AM without a note, a text message, a post-it on the head, nothing, nada, not one thing to indicate where he was or when he might be coming home. So I wait about five more minutes, and call him on his cell phone. His response was.......I just left I will be home in a minute.
It took him approximately ten minutes to pull in the driveway...This is what he tells me.....
Derrek, next door (neighbor), was really drunk and got in his car and said he was going to waffle house to get some food. I havent seen him for a while so I went to check on him.

WHAT? QUE? what the fart?

Is it just me or is that about the lamest excuse ever. If you were truely worried about Derrek the next door neighbor then wouldnt you just offer to drive his truck to Waffle House, instead of letting a drunk guy get behind the wheel? Secondly, who made you his momma? What makes you think you shoudl get in our car and drive around looking for this drunk person? Last, you have been drunk, you know that while you may say while intoxicated that you are going to Waffle House, you may end up at Waffle House/Taco Bell/Burger King in the next town.


So needless to say I got virtually no sleep last night, and I cant get over this nagging feeling that something isnt right!!!!I think I am living with a cheater.  ANY ADVICE would be gratefully appreciated.

From Blue to Pink

SO yes I am exhausted.
I must update... I have hosted a baby shower for a friend, two weekends ago, worked an additional fifteen hours, then hosted my sons fabulous superhero party, working an additional seventeen hours this past week. So EXHAUSTED well I need a new word for that meaning. But its done, and I have some absolutely adorable pictures to show of the entire party.
SUPER HERO's galore! just apparently not on the camera I brought today...Ooops so those will be loaded another time.

I have been thinking lately, about all things girly. AND of course its because we are having a girl but I cant' really come to imagine what she will look like. I mean I have the blob from the ultrasound but there is no hair on that blob. I guess in that department I imagine ringlets of curls...BLONDE sorry T. But as for her face...I dont know Jax came out looking the spiting image of his daddy so I hope that this one will have a little of me and maybe t's lips, and ability to tan.
My other thoughts lead me to the nursery and I have found the most adorable dresser and its PERFECT. It was posted on Craigslist, and I needed it so I was lucky enough to call the seller up and get over there in a hurry and nab it before someone else did.
 What do you think......PERFECT RIGHT??

And yes that is her initial right there in the center...Like I said PERFECT!

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Now if I could just figure out what colors I want to the soon to be baby room. I am at a lost here. I do NOT want to do pink...NOPE not a fan of pink pink and more pink when it comes to design. But I was thinking like a pinkish red. With some accents in white or even a light grey with accents of pink blue and yellow. I have pottery barn ambition but not the Pottery Barn budget. I really want a white crib even though logic states to use Jax's old one.  Jax's is ebony and to dark for what I was thinking. SO what to do what to do???? Maybe there will be one at the upcoming consignment sale.

I still think I am in disbelief! IM EXCITED beyond belief but its hard to transition from being a mommy to a lil boy.. Where i literally only think trucks, trains, and airplanes, and have for the past four years, MY BABYS turned four Yall...I cant believe it. To getting to think about dance classes (something I can't wait for i love dance), and fairys, princesses, and tea parties with princes. And pink purple, purses, makeup, and BOWS. 

 

WE ARE HAVING.......A.............

I know that you probably could care less about what i write with a title like that because if you're out there you just want to know what it is...I am ecstatic today.

Taylor and I went to the doctor for the sonogram!!!!! This one was great, our first time around with Jax the ultrasound was not so great, that doesnt even cut it, it sucked. A time that should have been fabulous and fantastic for us first time parents was ruined by a ultrasound tec who treated us like crap. She made it impossible for me to see anything she kept the screen turned, and when I attempted to look she told me I was messing her up and to lay back down. She was teaching someone which is what makes it worse. She was more concerned with showing the student, than the first time mom to be who had been anxiously waiting on pins and needles to find out what her little pnut was, looked like, did in her tummy all day, etc. All in all that was a horrible experience, one that I was hopeing would not reoccur this go round, and IT DID NOT! Thank you GOD, you are glorious! GOD put Amanda Green in that office today just for us. I know it!

We arrive, and were brought in. The UTech was as cute as a button, and so completely sweet, she had three kids of her own. When we came in she immediately made us feel at home. U know the typical come in pull your pants down, and your shirt off, and here some KY, feel at home. Taylor and I were already at ease within the first thirty seconds.

Amanda took her time and showed us everything! Head, bone, heart, butt, back of head which baby bubbles was more than happy to show us alot of. She is the most awesomeus ultrasound tech ever she showed us the feet, tummy, and baby bubbles was not so inclined to show us what it was. But Amanda was determined to get that shot no matter how long it took (love her), and several times this momma (who has absolutely no idea what the big blob of goo on the screen was,  thought she saw something, but turned out it was feet).

Well here it is the moment you have all been waiting, and if you cheated and scrolled down, well thats fine too because BABY BUBBLES is a.............

That special time of year

There comes a time every year that is so magical that I absolutely love it!
Im not talking about Christmas, I am undoubtedly a NERD! (notice all caps) but I absolutely love when my son's birthday comes around.
ITS my favorite. Don't get me wrong I love the birth of baby Jesus and celebrating when he rose, but I absolutely love planning and executing my son's birthday!

It was such a special day, the day I met him even threw exhaustion and drugs I knew he was a keeper.
I remember that I never really got to have great thought out birthday parties each year as  a child , and that I LOVE doing it for him.
So what do I have up my sleeve for his birthday party. HE is turning the big 4!
Well last year we did PIRATES! and boy was it a hit. We went to the local gymnastics center and everyone walked to trampoline plank into foam blocks, then ziplined down into another set of foam blocks, made their own swords, and thoroughly had an awesome time. If I do say so myself.
I was torn this year between two categories so I went to the one who would know best...
Little man! and he chose the following:
duh duh duh daaaaaaa
SUPERHERO's Party. There is something about putting on his spiderman/superman/iron man/transformer costumes that just lights him up. And even though they don't have guns little man is always trying to incorporate his ray gun. Which scares off the monsters!

But this is not just any super hero party! This one will be equipped with capes and mask and a super hero training camp. Plus everyone will get their own superhero card (with their picture in a super hero pose). HOW AWESOME!

So I am currently working on this and came across this site SEWPLAINJANE.com where they sell custom capes for Kids 

 

How flipping adorable. and I thought in light of goodie bags what kid wouldnt want their own super hero cape! So I priced it and guess what? TOTALLY Cheaper than goodie bags! I am so stoaked!

 

Next step is to line up the party place, then INVITATIONs, and a guest list, then after that the ideal cake for such a big boy...he is turning 4 and that is huge to him. He is officially a big little boy. I have an idea of what I want and I cant wait to share with you guys until then....

ITS no Secret!!!

Okay so the pregnancy as of this moment.....Kinda is. Im fifteen weeks along, sixteen on Thursday....WOW the time has flown. And with the help of Dillards Clearance department and some fluffy clothes, I have decided to not make this one known like I did with my first just because, at work I feel like I was overlooked for a job that I was absolutely perfect for because they knew I was preggers, and then it just went from there...LONG STORY! I also cannot personally stand that people act as if you are incapable of the slightest movement when pregnant. NO let me lift that newspaper you shouldnt do that....WHich is why I contribute the nicety of others (which by all means I am grateful for in some situations) to my gaining waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay to much weight with the first baby...AND the god awful stretch marks that followed, and have stuck around. BAD NICE PEOPLE.

So while the pregnancy may be a secret-SHHHHHH for now its not a secret that I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY want a baby girl!

Now I am by no means opposed to a boy, I mean I have a son. Who I love more than anything...He is my bestest good buddy! And he knows it! I love every waking moment with him and would truely die for him if need be! I love that he loves trucks, trains, and airplanes, and is all boy! But I really HOPE this is a little girl because I need some ribbons and curls, and little dresses with frilly lace and polka dots! Matchy matchy shoes, and hair other than my own. Dance classes, and gymnastics, barbie dolls and things that I can take part in and know exactly what they are, or they are supposed to do. (Im am constantly asked what certain trucks and tools do and I honestly have NO idea) I just need some girl to go with my boy....I dont think that is bad, or wrong of me is it?

I have even begun to refer to the baby as a her, a she, little princess. my girly girl. My little M. I cant wait to find out and then to meet BUBBLES. (thats the name I gave her for inside my belly)

Well a little update from the old Doctor....As of January 5th, 2012-Although I do not look it, and certainly do not believe it...(I think it was a fluke, but I will take it) I am down eight pounds who knew to loose weight just get knocked up. I have been trying to get rid of extra pounds for three years now....
Stats I care about: 
Pants: don't fit without elastic, or rubberband, a pair of pliers, or just removing the button altogether.
Shirts:  have to be fluffy/flowey, or a mans or else in my mind you can definitely tell something.
Underware: Little known thing about pregnancy but it sucks....Just go up a size...or two. Unless you like the pulling/tearing sound made when sitting down, or the idea of fabric slidding in your butt crack. Trust me either instance NOT FUN.
Drinking: at least two Dasani's (sometimes by force) a day.
Eating: about six meals, one of which consist of two cutie oranges (yummy).
Calorie Count:...I have no idea! I have just been putting the food in there, who cares about counting it (dont hate).
Peeing: at least sixty times a day-WHAT FUN!
Skin-A little itchy so lathering up the lotion. Trying Mustela-9 Mois.
Hair-Looks like crap, I cant keep it from looking oily, and therefore it is up on my head more often than not.
Energy Level- Dragging ass....can barely keep up. MUST take nap.
Baby-still in there and I still feel bubbles.

Well as always I will keep you updated. Drop me line I would love to hear from you....really anybody.

Anticipation

Well the much anticipated day came, and yes I took off from work, and went without an ultrasound! WHAT?!?@?

So went to the doctor on Monday to find out I would be poked full of holes, have to pee in a cup, answer fiftybagillion questions, and no picture! Nope they werent expecting me for that kind of visit so I needed to come back in two weeks. SAY WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!@

Oh no! So I did all that went to the front desk lady to see what they had for Tuesday! (did I mention impatient) Nada, Wednesday, NADA, Thursday for crying out loud.....ding ding ding one appointment at 1030! HALLELUIAH! TOOK IT!

And guess what I got.......

well yes I got to pee in a cup, again, its kinda the thing in the ob office apparently, but I also got


This. How cute is my little kumqwait! So cute! And lookign at this I just know its a BOY (it looks identical to what Jax looked like) but who knows maybe...Hopefully I am wrong! I really need some hair, and bows, and dresses, and shoes, and purses, dolls, princesses and PINK for goodness sake! Im drowning in trucks (and I dont know what kind they are).

Well I also got a due date but Im sure its going to be wrong....and some much needed encouragement from the doctor with no NO NO sense of humor.  Due date is July 6, 2012, and encouragement was dont worry this labor PROBABLY won't be as long as the first... CONSIDERING I WAS IN LABOR FOREVER with JAX I sure hope not!!!!

Please anyone out there with a second child let me know that labor is shorter, quicker, the drugs work, and painless it would be really appreciated at this moment. ALSO a guess on what kumqwait is, I would love to hear any.....

Exhaustion

Im not sure if it is the pregnancy or the lack of caffeine. Whoever did a study to find out that pregnant people should not drink coke, or pepsi, should be shot! I mean five hour energies are out, and exhaustion has set in here, so what am I supposed to do.......CHEW GUM.... well Apparently according to Google I should chew gum to stay awake, hmph who knew.

well I am up for trying anything....at least for the next five minutes.

Im so sleepy. I found myself in a George Costanza (sienfield reference, although i never watch sienfield) at lunchtime today. I literally crawled under my desk pulled out my blanket, I keep for when its cold in the office, and passed out for about fourty five minutes. I would have probably slept straight on to five oclock if my mother hadnt called. I swear with my mom its like she has an alert on her phone that tells her when I am napping. Is that an ap, that I am unaware of, and do they have another ap to fight it?

Well on a happy note, normally I would do a jig, but I can barely type I am so tired, it is Friday, and seeing as I am planning on making it to Monday, at least I hope! I will get to see the inside of this here belly. I promise to take a belly pic, even though I dread it!
It will probably look more like an arial map with a giant crater in the center. You see I have stretch marks from my first baby, and they have yet to retreat. If anyone out there happens to have an awesome remedy, trust me I have tried different things but am open to try more, please let me know.
And if I can figure it out a pic of the pic I get from the good ole doc.

Oh and on the pants war....Im losing hopelessly there, there are literally two pairs of pants in my closet that fit. The jeans that are on my butt right now are hanging on for dear life as is the rubberband that is double looped around the button. Thank God I own two long shirts. Oh crap that makes for exactly four outfits. LOOKS like I am off to Target after work.

well I hope everyone has a good weekend......
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