Anticipation

Well the much anticipated day came, and yes I took off from work, and went without an ultrasound! WHAT?!?@?

So went to the doctor on Monday to find out I would be poked full of holes, have to pee in a cup, answer fiftybagillion questions, and no picture! Nope they werent expecting me for that kind of visit so I needed to come back in two weeks. SAY WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!@

Oh no! So I did all that went to the front desk lady to see what they had for Tuesday! (did I mention impatient) Nada, Wednesday, NADA, Thursday for crying out loud.....ding ding ding one appointment at 1030! HALLELUIAH! TOOK IT!

And guess what I got.......

well yes I got to pee in a cup, again, its kinda the thing in the ob office apparently, but I also got


This. How cute is my little kumqwait! So cute! And lookign at this I just know its a BOY (it looks identical to what Jax looked like) but who knows maybe...Hopefully I am wrong! I really need some hair, and bows, and dresses, and shoes, and purses, dolls, princesses and PINK for goodness sake! Im drowning in trucks (and I dont know what kind they are).

Well I also got a due date but Im sure its going to be wrong....and some much needed encouragement from the doctor with no NO NO sense of humor.  Due date is July 6, 2012, and encouragement was dont worry this labor PROBABLY won't be as long as the first... CONSIDERING I WAS IN LABOR FOREVER with JAX I sure hope not!!!!

Please anyone out there with a second child let me know that labor is shorter, quicker, the drugs work, and painless it would be really appreciated at this moment. ALSO a guess on what kumqwait is, I would love to hear any.....

Exhaustion

Im not sure if it is the pregnancy or the lack of caffeine. Whoever did a study to find out that pregnant people should not drink coke, or pepsi, should be shot! I mean five hour energies are out, and exhaustion has set in here, so what am I supposed to do.......CHEW GUM.... well Apparently according to Google I should chew gum to stay awake, hmph who knew.

well I am up for trying anything....at least for the next five minutes.

Im so sleepy. I found myself in a George Costanza (sienfield reference, although i never watch sienfield) at lunchtime today. I literally crawled under my desk pulled out my blanket, I keep for when its cold in the office, and passed out for about fourty five minutes. I would have probably slept straight on to five oclock if my mother hadnt called. I swear with my mom its like she has an alert on her phone that tells her when I am napping. Is that an ap, that I am unaware of, and do they have another ap to fight it?

Well on a happy note, normally I would do a jig, but I can barely type I am so tired, it is Friday, and seeing as I am planning on making it to Monday, at least I hope! I will get to see the inside of this here belly. I promise to take a belly pic, even though I dread it!
It will probably look more like an arial map with a giant crater in the center. You see I have stretch marks from my first baby, and they have yet to retreat. If anyone out there happens to have an awesome remedy, trust me I have tried different things but am open to try more, please let me know.
And if I can figure it out a pic of the pic I get from the good ole doc.

Oh and on the pants war....Im losing hopelessly there, there are literally two pairs of pants in my closet that fit. The jeans that are on my butt right now are hanging on for dear life as is the rubberband that is double looped around the button. Thank God I own two long shirts. Oh crap that makes for exactly four outfits. LOOKS like I am off to Target after work.

well I hope everyone has a good weekend......
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Oh sorry just drifted off on the keyboard.

Im going nuts over here!!!!!!!

OK the anticipation is absolutely killing me!!!! I am sitting here reading all the new growth that my lil one is experiencing in my belly and its making me abosolutely crazy. I want to see her! (note the gender reference, although I have no idea) I cant wait until next monday to see her. What was I thinking.

WAIT. Im impatient as heck. ARE you kidding. And being uncertain if there is more than just the one in there is also killing me. I mean I have physically never been so dang hungry in my life every two hours on the dot. I starve. Like now is apparently lunch time. in two hours it will be dinner time. and then two hours after that will be second dinner time, and dont even get me started on third dinner. HOW in the holy heck ama doo am I supposed to keep my figure and keep this hush for a lil bit if all I can think of doing is eating. I even think of eating when I am eating. And then I feel sick, but luckily not so much today. So maybe my letter to the baby helped. (Quick everyone knock on wood)

I have to say I just saw another pregnant girl in the lobby. One I work with. She is probably like sixteen weeks along and I couldnt tell. She just looked like she ate alot over the Thanksgiving holiday. Me I look like I ate the Turkey, and the ham and they got stuck around my uterus. What is going on in there. OKAY new thought someone needs to invent the carry along ultrasound. One you can do at home by yourself. I know then going to the doctor would not be near as fun but still you would be able to see what is happening, and think of the money you would make. (PS if you take this idea at least give me a little credit to it, and possibly some money would be awesome).

Can you guess what I am thinking about right now. Its 1115 and yep Im thinking about lunch. Looks like I will be heading to Target this afternoon to get clown pants, seeing as to those are probably the only ones that will fit me tomorrow. Maybe I can find a loose fitting top while Im there. And pick up third dinner. yum.

Talk soon

Dear

Dear Baby,
Please stop making mommy want to throw up at work. I promise I will spend tons of time with you when on maternity leave if you do, but sadly if you dont I will have to use up all of my sick leave and then I wont get paid for that time off and I wont be able to sit at home and lovingly look at you and smile, play with you, or any of the other fun stuff i really want to do.

Dear Jax,
Please stop jumping on mommys belly, back, legs, head, pretty much just stop jumping on mommy. Paired with the nausea the constant fear of you running around the corner and jumping on mommy has gotten her restless. Also I am really sorry that I havent been much fun. I have been battling something you will hopefully never encounter. NAUSEA.....And the thought of eating or sometimes the thought of cookin anything in general makes me want to vomit. And no my dear it isnt just you but mommy has adjusted your bedtime by thirty minutes so that she can get some extra snuggle time in there before daddy comes in and wakes her with his loud snoring. Im sorry but I will record Bubble Guppies and we can watch them on Saturday morning at 6AM, and I will be sure to wake daddy as I am sure he wont want to miss one bit.

Dear T.
Please stop snoring. Please stop feeling frisky at 1:30 AM when you know I have to work a full fourteen hour day. Please stop laying all of your body weight on me in the middle of the night, I although you may not believe this am not the $75 pillow that you had to have at the SLEEP NUMBER store. PS when I ask you to wake up in the morning because I need some help getting little one dressed. Please do SO. Dont make me treat you like a child.

Dear work.
Do you think you could go away, but still send me a paycheck? I mean I am not lazy, just exhausted.

Dear clothing,
DO you think you could maybe just hang in there a little while longer I mean tommorow will only be the start of the 8th week. I still have 32 more to go. Please  just fit for another ten weeks, its not to much to ask I promise! I will be good to you, no more weekends stuck in the dryer. No more three day layovers on the couch! Just stay with me please, hang in there. You and I both know that maternity clothes suck, they are big, and fluffy, and you want to kick them out of the closet. SO just fight back a little and stay in the game, and if its not too much to ask please dont rip in public.

Dear stomach,
If you wouldnt mind too terribly please lay flat for a little while longer. You see it has become increasing difficult to button pants around you, and to get them up all together. So just stay in there hidden for another...lets say ten weeks, that should do it. Oh and I know that if you would stop craving potatos of every kind that would probably help. Im just saying!

Dear Cherry Coke
Stop making me want you!

Dear water,
Please make yourself more appealing.

Dear sleep,
 I really miss you!

Shhhhhh. Don't tell.

Okay. So I did something bad. Truely appalling even to myself!!!

I was thinking about lunch and I swung by Taco Bell, but on the way back to the office after I had eaten every bit, including parts of the plastic, I stopped and got another full meal. CRAVINGS, say what?

I still feel nauseous. but I HAD to have a nacho belle grande it was like a sneak attack of the cravings. It was crazy the second I thought of Taco BELL i could barely wait the hour until lunch time to get twenty minutes across town to stop and get the #5, and yes so that my office mates wouldnt immediately realize that I was eating for two. I ATE in the car, while driving (I am ashamed). Mainly because of how I ate, I am sure the truck driver beside me thought I was cute until I looked over mouth full of chips, with cheese all over my face. I tossed the Taco Bell before exiting the parking garage, and I really wanted that sweet tea, but I chucked it. It was after all evidence of my shameless eating.

And just so you know it has been exactly two hours and I have not dived into the lunch fajitas with extra cheese that await me in the El Chico bag. MMMMM but I have thought about it, and now they may not be so lucky.

It is every two hours on the dot that I am famished. I mean Ethopian hungry. It is crazy, and it has me wondering is there more than one in there? I was never this hungry with lil one (and he didnt come out little), or maybe I was and I dont remember. But again I was never this absolutely naseous with little one either. I have yet to vomit, YAH me! Please knock on any wood you can find, because I am not a neat puker!

Also new to the game...I keep feeling movement! I KNOW crazy. BUT I SWEAR i do, and it isnt GAS people! I dont believe that gas can occur the same way exactly when I push my tummy right below my belly button. It is like a swoosh, a tiny poking of a finger, and no I am not retarded. I know that if I am only six weeks along it cant be what I think it is, but it has to be something? It would litterally only be the size of a blueberry according to WTE.
I dont know...I am tempted to wait a bit before going to the doc, but I may give in and go anyway. I am dying to know how big and when this little one was made?

Talk soon...

Repulsing

Okay so today I actually switched over to six weeks....YAH! BUT i also like overnight became nauseous to the thought of food in general. I ate some peanut butter toast this morning and now I am regreting it. I have not thrown up yet but I feel it lurking in my throat.

I know everything says your supposed to try and eat small meals but what do you do when every meal you think of even saltines makes you want to run to the bathroom holding your face!!!!!

UGH not to mention Im tired as heck and went to bed at nine oclock last night only to be awakened this mornign in a not so happy mood by T. I really just wanted stay asleep. That is horrible to say but what he doesnt know is making a baby is hard freaking work. AND I am exhausted.

I took lil one to gymanstics last night expecting to jog while he was in class but to my suprise, that was not the plan....IT WAS MOMMY joins the class day! Literally! We did back bridges which I havent done in forever! Jumps which I also havent done in forever and literally almosted peed myself trying to do! Thank goodness they had a bathroom break! So when I got home I was less than thrilled to have to wait until I cooked dinner to eat so I ate some Mini Wheats but I also ate some of the chicken alfredo (not together). So when I literally passed out ten minutes after eating its not a wonder as to why!

BUT waking up with the thought of throwing up...its the worst! There is no food that sounds good to me, and my salad is out so what do I eat????

Here we go again. 5 weeks in...

ON to Number two....
HOW exactly this happened. I have NO idea.....well I have an idea but....I think I am in disbelieve.

I found out on Saturday. I had the weirdest sickness to the half of a grape I put in my mouth....and then I thought OH SHIT I am pregnant! $9.19 later at the Target checkout line, a little pee on a stick in the Target bathroom no less and my thought was confirmed. I literally could not wait any longer I was about to pee when shopping so no judment.

It was so incredibly weird the night before I had taken the test I had a dream with T. and me in the hospital holding a baby in a pink blanket. I am so hopeful that this is my baby girl but I am even more hopeful that it is healthy.

I know this is bad but I havent told T. yet! I havent told anyone yet! NO ONE (well except the blog world) and I am literally dying for someone to know but I don't know if I am going to wait a while longer or if I am going to bust at the seams and tell T. this evening. I know he will be exstatic. Im nervous and scared just like with our first. But he is wonderful and so perfect. Im thinking this would make an awesome no cost Christmas present, but I dont know how long I can hold a secret, and I know T. cant hold a secret for five minutes before the whole world knows.

As for symptoms...My boobs are killing me today. UGH i am in agony. I don't know if that is primarily because I am pregnant or if it is because I went running yesterday with a not so supportive bra. Not eating first thing in the morning is making me nauseous, and I get hungry after about two hours after I have eaten. Like famished hungry. But after eating anything I am so totally naseous it makes me regret eating. 

I am a little worried. I seem to have been eating exactly what I shouldnt have been for the past few weeks. Apparently deli meat is bad for pregnant girls and I have been loading it on top of my salads.So now I have to figure out exactly what the heck I am going to eat for lunch since my meat and cheese salad is gone. THANKS BABY CENTER!

 Im literally exhausted all day it is very hard to pull myself out of my desk chair, and walking/running is something I have to push myself to do. I did however, despite my efforts to talk myself out of it convince a coworker to go and walk with me at lunch, of course it was to the local Publix, to get some crackers and cheese because I was craving them like crazy. the only thing I have craved since then was this dish t. fixed me the other day...Noodles and polska kielbasa, it was so good. ANd now I am craving it again.

I have become determined that I am not NOT going to allow myself to get as big as I did last time. I gained almost sixty five pounds with little one (he really wasnt so little) and I am not about to do that again, esspecially since I have been attempting to get this last twenty that has been with me for three years off. So I am going to keep with my jogging and start walking when I tire, and then put in an extra walk at night. I am hoping to gain only ten pounds within the first two trimesters. The pregnancy may have different ideas but I am motivated to keep excercising unless the good ole doc tells me naught.

I have also decided to take a GenderMAker test... I know that it probably is not accurate at all and I am not going to get my hopes up but I think it will be fun!!!! Til Next time!

Talk soon
:-)