Shhhhhh. Don't tell.

Okay. So I did something bad. Truely appalling even to myself!!!

I was thinking about lunch and I swung by Taco Bell, but on the way back to the office after I had eaten every bit, including parts of the plastic, I stopped and got another full meal. CRAVINGS, say what?

I still feel nauseous. but I HAD to have a nacho belle grande it was like a sneak attack of the cravings. It was crazy the second I thought of Taco BELL i could barely wait the hour until lunch time to get twenty minutes across town to stop and get the #5, and yes so that my office mates wouldnt immediately realize that I was eating for two. I ATE in the car, while driving (I am ashamed). Mainly because of how I ate, I am sure the truck driver beside me thought I was cute until I looked over mouth full of chips, with cheese all over my face. I tossed the Taco Bell before exiting the parking garage, and I really wanted that sweet tea, but I chucked it. It was after all evidence of my shameless eating.

And just so you know it has been exactly two hours and I have not dived into the lunch fajitas with extra cheese that await me in the El Chico bag. MMMMM but I have thought about it, and now they may not be so lucky.

It is every two hours on the dot that I am famished. I mean Ethopian hungry. It is crazy, and it has me wondering is there more than one in there? I was never this hungry with lil one (and he didnt come out little), or maybe I was and I dont remember. But again I was never this absolutely naseous with little one either. I have yet to vomit, YAH me! Please knock on any wood you can find, because I am not a neat puker!

Also new to the game...I keep feeling movement! I KNOW crazy. BUT I SWEAR i do, and it isnt GAS people! I dont believe that gas can occur the same way exactly when I push my tummy right below my belly button. It is like a swoosh, a tiny poking of a finger, and no I am not retarded. I know that if I am only six weeks along it cant be what I think it is, but it has to be something? It would litterally only be the size of a blueberry according to WTE.
I dont know...I am tempted to wait a bit before going to the doc, but I may give in and go anyway. I am dying to know how big and when this little one was made?

Talk soon...